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THIS IS NOT A TEST – Part 2


Point of clarification – because I despise vague posting –

Almost 11 years ago I had a thyroidectomy and neck dissection surgery – yes it is as brutal as it sounds, my neck was literally dissected – I noticed they had left a lymph node that was enlarged. When I asked the surgeon why it was still there, he said it wasn’t cancerous and they wanted to leave anything they could so they left it. It was the only one they left. Then about 6 months ago this same lymph node started acting very strange. Sometimes it was “normal” size. I say “normal” because this particular lymph node has not been normal for about 20 years. Sometimes it was “normal” size and sometimes it would blow up to the size of a golf ball. After months of this I decided to have it checked. The day of the needle biopsy I considered canceling the appointment because the node was normal sized when I woke up.  But my husband encouraged me to go ahead and have it done to put the question to rest once and for all.

A few days later the needle biopsy came back positive for papillary thyroid cancer. The good news is the oncologist believes it is latent cancer that they didn’t get the first round not a recurrence. This shows the slow growth rate of this particular type of cancer.

So I am letting the professionals treat me with the best of their knowledge and my job is praying the wisdom of God into them and fighting this from the spiritual side. Which I am doing on a full-time basis. It’s my new job. 🙂

My previous post “THIS IS NOT A TEST” has raised some questions I would like to clarify. It seems I have hit some discomfort buttons and my response is “Yay! I’m so glad!” The statements that have raised some questions are:

I don’t believe this is to teach me to endure in my faith. …

I don’t believe this is to test my heart for God. …

I don’t believe this is to build my character. …

I was asked, “But don’t you think that God turns everything for good?”

“Don’t you think God can work through this and do things in you that wouldn’t have happened otherwise?”

I believe that cancer intends to harm me but God’s heart is always for good toward me.

“I believe that you intended to harm me, but God intended it only for good.”*

No disease is from God. Disease is directly opposed to His character, design and plan for His people. Out of His amazing love for us He can – and will – take hard circumstances and work them into good things in our life. I believe God will take this and work amazing things in my life. I don’t believe He does this because it was the only way He could get my attention. I don’t believe it takes evil to produce good. Absolutely not! I believe that God takes things like this disease and, to prove who truly holds the power, who has the ultimate victory, and to repay what the enemy steals, He does amazing things. I believe He offers grace. Grace to get us through the hard times and grace that repays in abundance what is temporarily hindered.

I do believe that God will do things in me and those I love because of this journey but I do not believe that He has caused this.

If your child asks for bread, do you trick him with sawdust? If he asks for fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? As bad as you are, you wouldn’t think of such a thing. You’re at least decent to your own children. So don’t you think the God who conceived you in love will be even better? **

If we accused our earthly father of doing some of the things that we claim come from our heavenly father, they would be thrown in prison for abuse. My own father was not one to constantly hug or verbally express his love for us, yet we knew that he loved us. So with all of his limitations from living and life, if he can do at least that, how much more does the Perfect Father love us. And His love is perfect – as is He.

This I know – God is good. He loves me. His plan for me is for good. He wants me to have success and good health even as my spirit and soul, my inward man, the place where my new life in Christ is seated, has success and health. ***

May you experience His grace in new ways.

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*Genesis 50.20 (VOICE) Even though you intended to harm me, God intended it only for good, and through me, He preserved the lives of countless people, as He is still doing today.
**Matthew 7.9-11 (MSG) If your child asks for bread, do you trick him with sawdust? If he asks for fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? As bad as you are, you wouldn’t think of such a thing. You’re at least decent to your own children. So don’t you think the God who conceived you in love will be even better?
***3 John 1.2 (GNT) My dear friend, I pray that everything may go well with you and that you may be in good health—as I know you are well in spirit.

1 Comment

  1. digikm

    September 15, 2014 1:36 am

    Bring it! He’s a good God! He will make all things new and right! IN JESUS NAME, ANGIE’S BODY, LINE UP WITH HEAVEN!!! AS HE IS, SO ARE YOU ON THIS EARTH!!!!!

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