Good Girl

So often we talk of grace.  We say grace.  But how often are we really changed by grace?

Grace is defined as “God’s unmerited favor towards us in Christ”.  But what does this mean?  How does this play out in my day-to-day life?

I had for all my life, been trying to be the good girl.  Maybe if I was ‘better’ (or worked harder, hid better, said less, wanted less) I wouldn’t be hurt, abused, ignored, lonely, insecure.  But the problem was no matter how good I was, my little life was still in shambles.

I grew up, got married and still tried to be the good girl.  I followed all the rules – all the do’s and the don’ts especially the don’ts.  I plastered on a happy face and pretended my life was all I wanted it to be even though I was dying on the inside bit by bit.  I pretended I was happy but I was very hopeless and sad.

Then one day the living God of the universe dropped a stone of truth into the quiet pool of my heart and the ripples changed me forever.  It changed my relationship with God.  It changed my relationship with my family and friends. It changed my relationship with myself.

I realized, for the first time, that God deeply, irrevocably, passionately loves me.  There is nothing I can do or not do that will change this fact.  There is no place too far that I can fall; no darkness so black He can’t see.  Nothing I have done or has been done to me changes His love for me.  He knows my heart and my motives better than I know them myself. He sees all my treasure and all my garbage, all my beauty and my mess and loves me anyway.  He has carved my name on His arm and I am never out of His thoughts.

His love carved the mountains out of the earth, routed the rivers to the sea and flung the stars into space.  This same love reaches out to me and pulls me into His grace  –  His immeasurable, unfathomable grace.

This love reaches to you too, My Friend.

He doesn’t care what you do or what you don’t do.  He loves you!!

No matter what you’ve done, what you’ve thought or what you have believed He loves you.

May you finally let go and fall into His grace.

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